i guess this means he's a big boy now

I remember this exact moment with Renee. I remember opening that picture, starting to process it and the tears streaming down my face. I remember seeing a toddler and not a baby and how it pulled at my heartstrings. I remember wondering where the time went, how I missed it. I promised myself to not let that happen again. I promised that I would hold on to the baby that was then still in my belly and I promised that I wouldn't let it (he was an it at the time) grow big without me noticing.

It happened again only today I'm looking at my son, my baby, THE baby.  

He's a boy. 

Life has gone so fast that I've hardly noticed his face thinning out and I don't remember what day it was that the rolls around his wrists disappeared. I want that day back. I want to tell his baby chub goodbye. I want to tell the dimples on his knees that I'll miss them. 

Just we're clear, Cameron, you'll always be The Baby to me. Always.

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[AmandaH]

So sweet. I feel for ya.