when you can't sleep, blog

I fell asleep on the couch at 7:45PM tonight and apparently that has me up at 3AM, wide awake, ready to start my day. Blogging while drowsy is a bit like blogging while tipsy and because I haven't been tipsy in well, let's see, multiple YEARS, this will have to be risky enough. I promise you this post will be boring and probably pointless and most likely lacking of all correct punctuation and propositions. I don't care.

I saw my OB on Friday. Scheduled the c-section for 11/18. I thought I would feel more relieved. I probably would but then she told me that I was dialated to 2cm, totally thinned out and that the head is very, very low and engaged and that she wouldn't be at all surprised if it happened on its own before that. Which is good. But sort of defeats the whole SCHEDULED thing. And now I am back to wanting to have this baby the right way. MAKE UP YOUR FLIIPPING MIND ALREADY. I'm already saying things like, "Well, if I go in on Friday and am still progressing, maybe I should move the c-section back closer to my due date." My poor, poor husband.

Saturday night I started having contractions around 8PM. They weren't all that strong but consistently 8-10 minutes apart. I was up all night freaking out, checking my hospital bags, etc. Then around 8AM yesterday morning they stopped completely. I equate them with the flirty, idiotic girls that I went to college with that used to actually admit to me that they "just like to flirt." My body is TEASING me. I should also mention that because of the way Renee was born with the whole breaking water, c-section 2 hours later thing, I don't actually know what a contraction feels like. So I'm pretty much a first timer. Was that it? Whoa, what was that? It could be a long nine or more days. Have I mentioned that you should feel sorry for my husband?

Renee is talking up a storm and new words are flying out of her mouth every day. The biggest development is that she can finally say HELP...which we're hoping is going to save us from the fits of rage over everything that she is trying to say but can't quite get out properly. Yesterday she was trying to put her puzzle together and instead of lining them all up with their proper match and then screeching because she doesn't have the patience to practice her fine motor skills and just wants us to put them in the flipping slots already, she looked me straight in the eye and demanded "HELP!" She is so fun to be around right now. Also: hard. She is sick of me struggling to take care of her, I think, and wants DAD all of the time. She stood outside the bathroom door and screamed for him yesterday while he was in the shower. She wants nothing to do with me. I don't blame her but that doesn't make it any easier. I couldn't do anything but sit in the chair next to her and cry right along with her. Ski came out to find us both sobbing our heads off and he looked at me like "What the heck is going on?" The poor man.

Ski's mom bought Renee this hilarious little outfit with a skirt and matching tights and when I put it on her for the first time, I laughed for hours. I had never dressed her in tights before and something about her toddling around in tights and Mary Janes made me laugh so flipping hard. Then I promptly got online and ordered her about fifteen more dresses with matching tights. Because I could use the comedic relief. The picture is appropriate because BEEP, BEEP! about the bus and HOO! HOO! about owls are her two favorite things right now. I love how she purses her little lips just so and then says HOO! HOO! in this sweet, innocent little baby girl voice. I know you don't care but I do and it is almost 4AM now and I'm the most pregnant woman and town and well, HOO! HOO! is all I've got.

Comments

[The Mommy]

I HATE Braxton-Hicks. Really, the guy should just be run over for coming up with a name for them! I had the same thing happen multiple times with Baby Girl and it was a nightmare. I would wake in the middle of the night, time them for an hour, and then wake my husband to tell him what was going on and that I was going downstairs to try to walk it off. Yeah. By the fourth time or so, he just went back to sleep:) Needless to say, I ended up with a scheduled induction - during which my water broke on its own, which convinced the nurses I would have had her that day anyhow. Sheesh.

Good luck! No matter what happens or how this baby comes out, I'm only hoping that s/he is healthy. We're keeping you guys in our thoughts and prayers.

And, boy, do I love that outfit! It's a little comical, but you couldn't get away with wearing it at my age. Could you? Does it come in grown-up sizes? Seriously, too cute!

[kim]

I'm glad you have it scheduled and an absolute "no-longer-than" date in mind! Now s/he will probably decide when to come on his or her own. Good luck! I think they should not even tell us how much things are progressing, I swear it's just frustrating and causes more emotional angst than anything. At 38 weeks I was dilated and thinned and engaged and contracting and pretty much everything you can be and yep, I made it to 40 weeks and 6 days. So, if you need something to smile about - you'll likely never see 40+ weeks. :)

Let me know if you are feeling up to bunco and still want to go... I'm cool with that even if it's on Wednesday afternoon.

Have a good week!

[Gretchen]

A. Super cute outfit from grandma and grandpa Skopinski!

B. I don't know much about childbirth, but I think that every woman deserves to do whatever is right for her body and situation without feeling guilty for any reason whatsoever. Don't let anyone make you think otherwise. I support you 100% in whatever happens. All that I hope for you is that you have a safe delivery (no delivering in the car, in your own bathroom, etc.) and that you have a healthy baby.

C. Just wanted to let you know that you are one of the strongest and most independent women that I know. You can handle whatever happens with the delivery...you can love and care for 2 babies at the same time...you are a great wife and partner. Even though you might be overwhelmed right now just remember that everything is going to work out just fine.

Please, please, please let me know if you need anything. I would love to help in any way that I can (this includes coming up for the day to take care of laundry, grocery shopping, etc.). I'm serious :)

Have a good rest of the week. Can't wait to hear from you and to find out if baby2 is a boy or girl....I'm leaning towards girl!

[lib]

where do you get the super cute matching tights and dresses?