I had an appointment today with my new OB to talk about genetic screening and to follow-up to make sure things are progressing OK. She did a quick ultrasound just looking for a heartbeat and it is still kicking it in there. We were supposed to go to Pittsburgh this weekend for soon-to-be Aunt Brooke's bridal shower but Ski and I didn't think we could live with ourselves if we went and something happened to the baby so we are staying home. I just don't want to be sitting around saying "WHAT IF?" If I take it easy and do what I'm told and I miscarry then at least I know that I did everything I could.
Speaking of "WHAT IF?"...my doctor gave me the run down on what to expect for this pregnancy. I'm sort of bummed out that it wasn't the same speech I got last time. There was a lot more "high risk" and "preterm labor" talked about. She said, "We need to get you to 12 weeks and then you can relax a bit until 28 weeks when we'll start worrying about preterm labor." Sweet. Then she said that she would recommend that I get progesterone shots once a week from 18 weeks until 37 weeks (if I make it that long this time). I don't know how I feel about that. It is so new and there isn't much information out there about long-term effects on the fetus. WHAT IF I don't do it and end up going in to preterm labor again and it doesn't end up as good as it did with Renee? Then again, WHAT IF I do it and this baby ends up with some weird defect later in life? The eternal WHAT IFs of pregnancy. WHAT IF I do genetic screening? WHAT IF I don't? WHAT IF the baby is born with three eyes?
I'm not quite ready to say "this is my last pregnancy" but I get closer and closer every day. I always wanted 3 kids but really, can I go through this again? I can handle the barfing and the mood swings but it just seems like it has been one problem after another with both pregnancies. I just don't think my stupid body likes being pregnant. It must miss the wine.
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