just plain scared

I have been walking around in a fog for a week now. Now that I've adjusted to the shock of finding out I'm pregnant again, I am getting attached to the idea of having this baby. Which means I am now living in fear. I'm terrified because every study I read regarding uterine septums mentions miscarriage, pre-term labor and brain damage. Every. single. one. Today I feel like I should get a second opinion about everything. The doctor that did my c-section mentioned 'high-risk pregnancy' and 'never carrying a baby to full-term' but then I talked to my doctor about it and she was totally nonchalant about it. She said plenty of women have plenty of normal babies with septums and that we don't worry about them unless there are multiple miscarriages. She was saying what I wanted to hear at the time so I just believed her. But now I feel guilty. Like I should have asked more questions and demanded more answers. Like sometime before I brought a bunch of cells that have the potential of becoming a whole new being in to existence. Because now there is nothing I can do but to wait and see. I'm not any good at waiting and seeing. I have an appointment on April 14th that seems like an eternity away. I will feel so much better after I see the heartbeat and they can tell me the little bugger implanted on my uterus and not on the stupid abnormality that runs through it.